Little White Book, Monday 3/30

The Feast of the Annunciation

Of course, today we are discussing Mary’s “Yes” to God, and whether in our day-to-day routine we are saying “Yes” or “No” to God.  They point out that it’s usually not a direct “yes” or “no,” but rather a failure to take God into account in our activities and decisions.

Guilty.  I do not always take God’s position into consideration for many things that I do.  I may do an examination of conscience at the end of the day, and try to see if I messed up anywhere, but there is a distinct lack of forethought about these things.  Which, I would think, would tend to indicate that in those moments, God wasn’t in the forefront.  He wasn’t in the prime location in my thoughts.  I didn’t have Him first.  My priorities were out-of-line.

Not that I mean to not think about God, but perhaps I am, just a teeny bit impulsive and act/talk without thinking.  Only later, will I (maybe) take a look and reconsider things.  I’m sure I’d get into much less trouble (both with God and with others) if I thought first.

Another issue is giving over completely to His will.  Have you guys ever found yourselves hedging like this:  “Okay God, I will accept whatever it is that You want for this situation, but if it’s okay with You…would You please keep in mind that I would like X as an outcome?  Thank You!”  Is that okay?  Can you give over control, but retain a preference?

Little White Book, Saturday 3/30

(Yep, I’m a day behind.  I’ll try to catch up.)

This reading is mainly directed at getting us to think about the immense magnitude of an infinite God, and what that might mean to us.  Then it tells us that, “Faith is nothing more and nothing less than accepting my connection with God who chose not to be distant….”

Okay, I am having as hard of a time trying to find something insightful to this today as I was having yesterday.  I don’t think my little pea-brain can yet deal with the concept of an infinitely powerful God who is radically in love with ME.  I can understand and accept the concept, but to get it — to REALLY get it?  I don’t know that I am there yet.

Any suggestions?