The other day, I was trying to say something nice, but inadvertantly said something that triggered a pet peeve of a friend of mine. I was called out on Facebook for it, which felt like a slap in the face to me — like my feelings are not to be considered and making another person feel bad in public is okay. Why wouldn’t my friend talk to me in private, if I offended her? I certainly didn’t mean any offense.
I don’t understand the reason for her reaction, but I respect her opinion on the matter and apologized and will try to not do the same thing again in the future.
But. It is now days later and it is really upsetting to me still. Why? Why is this bugging me so much?
Well, first, I guess, I really love people. And, especially if I consider you my friend, hurting you hurts me.
Second, I would think that my friends would know me and would assume first that I’m not trying to offend them, instead of assuming the worst.
Third, now I’m actually afraid of saying anything to her again, lest I offend her. Again. Maybe it’s better to not say anything than to risk the friendship.
But then, what kind of friendship would that be if we never spoke?
Does she even want a friendship with me?
I get that most people would just blow the incident off and not think anything of it. And I have tried praying to God and asking him to heal me. Since I realize that the problem is with *my* heart. But, I also don’t believe in sweeping problems under the rug. I don’t think an issue will truly go away if it’s not dealt with.
Sorry for the sad post. I promise I’ll be happy again soon!